My heart has wandered. It has become full of distractions, lists, helpings, and busyness. It has become disentangled from the One I love. This, unfortunately, is not the first time it's happened and when I come to the realization that it's happened it's easy to get mad and ask Him "Why? You're the head of this relationship, why can't You just keep us together?" I feel Him smile lovingly at me and whisper to my heart "Because this relationship is not a prison. I want you here because you want to be here.". Psalm 32:9
I hear stories of people that have become so busy doing for Him that they forget to be with Him. And when you spend time with Him and are so full of Him and the joy and happiness that He brings to your relationship, you think "I don't see how that could ever happen to me.". But thieves steal over the wall, foxes spoil the garden and it all happens so gradually so slowly over a long period of time that you don't even realize it's happening and before you know it you look around for the One you're so full of and see that you're no longer full of Him and He's been pushed into the background.
It's not always the world that gets in the way, your sin or selfish desires, sometimes you get busy helping people or doing things you think are for Him and you forget... You forget that the most important thing in this relationship is... Him. Not the things you do or even the people around you, nothing but Him.
When you're full of Him, when He is in you and you are in Him then the doing, the helping, the serving comes out of a full heart, an overflow of the love you are wrapped up in and joy of the One you're with. Like the perfect explanation of a baby born from the love of two people so your works, service, and deeds are born of the excessive love of being in Him.
If only I could remember that all the time...
